Shooting Star

Yesterday morning, I experienced a one-in-a-million phenomenon.

While I was observing some night-sky objects from my rooftop,

I saw a shooting star.

I was surprised at first

and after a second, I asked myself what to do

What do other people do when they see one?

And then I smiled

and I made a wish.

Two wishes to be exact

two days prior to my twenty-eighth birthday

which I hope to come true this year.

But.... I got distracted by a thought

and then I revoked my wishes.

Because in fact, seeing that particular star, was my dream

The object I used to visualize from novels, or see in pictures

This was my early birthday gift.

The first time in my twenty eight years on Earth, with my own eyes, that I witnessed a shooting star

and that, was the most beautiful 5 seconds of my life.

a lesson learned

a book, had just changed my mind, completely.

have you ever thought about doing it all wrong all this time?

because that is how I exactly feel right now.

I feel dumb, I kept saying "no wonder" all the way

yet I felt relieved that I found this book

where has it been?

where have I been?

I wished I found the book sooner

maybe it will all be better

(or not)

but at least now I do not feel confused anymore

I can finally understand, and feel good about everything,

about myself.

I finally recognized that indeed, I made a mistake

and it is okay

everybody makes mistakes.

Most importantly, I know that there are things I could not change

Shit happens, life goes on

I could not wait to apply this new knowledge in real life.

I wish myself the best of luck :)

"Stop waiting for Friday

for summer

for someone to fall in love with you

for life.

Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it

and make the most of the moment you are in now."

Lately I've been waiting...

for good news

for things to change

for things to go back to where they used to be

to go back to where it should be

for the things that never came.

Then I realized, that instead

I should stop waiting...

because when you stop waiting

that's where you find solitude

that's where you find peace.

Have faith that the best is yet to come.

Whether or not you wait.

It will come.

Gratitude

I am feeling grateful for what I have accomplished so far

and that I have the people who show up in times of need.

The people who are becoming my number one cheerleaders.

Those who sit at the front row, who will be the loudest supporter no matter how bad I fail, and stand up the highest to clap whenever I succeeded.

Though I do still grumble sometimes

but every time I remind myself of these people, I hold my head high, and smile.

I have no single reason to feel any sorrow.

I have all I need.

I have enough.

I am enough.

"Faith"

and maybe this won't last, maybe this moment is all we have.

let's find out.

- Andrea Bocelli 

Little Girl

I looked left when the elevator bell dings

and there you are

staring at me

I stared back

Then I waved

smiling under my mask

hoping you can see it from afar

You waved back

whilst smiling under your tiny mask

walking away on your little feet

your head still turned around every second as you walked

it was as if you wanted to get to know me

but your path is on the other side

Hey little girl

I do not know who you are

but your sweet gesture have made my day

and I would not let this memory slip away

So I guess, I will see you again, soon?

Chill Pill

You can not force someone to stay

You can not beg someone to leave

If they want to stay, they will

If they want to leave, they will.

 

But have that talk

and whatever the closure comes

appreciate yourself for being brave enough to bring it up

appreciate their openness for being honest

for their willingness to face it.

Then, take that chill pill.

Because when you care of someone

you will try to understand where they are coming from

and why they choose what they decide

and that no one can change a thing.

 

It is okay to wonder why the universe is somehow cruel

for letting two people who belong to each other know each other

but does not allow them to stay together

for whatever reason.

 

But I realize that this is just how the world works.

So please, take that f-ing chill pill.